three two tango

asparagusgreens @ 2009-11-29T17:16:00

2009-11-29T22:16:34Z

and i have been gifted a large screen for printing.

I know I say I hate screen prints, but WHATEVER IT IS BIG AND FREE AND WAY CHEAPER THAN COPPER AND EASIER

i'm going to hell

asparagusgreens @ 2009-11-29T17:13:00

2009-11-29T22:13:54Z

GO SEE MY THING AT WORK GALLERY SOMETIME IF YOU WALK BY IT

asparagusgreens @ 2009-11-15T17:45:00

2009-11-15T22:45:08Z

I AM REALLY EXCITED. I have this idea that the prints just become small galleries, basically. The halos become windows!!! AND I WILL PAINT IN OILS!! ON PAPER! the painting will just be cut into pieces and then stretched out into windows of the very long print.

like this:

this was a study i did in painting last semester that I cut up. I am not wholly fond of the colors in it, but I think this idea is where I am going. AHHHHHHHHHH SASSY THAT, I can paint and print? and make the repetition make more sense? I AM SOEXICITED TO TELL THYLIAS

asparagusgreens @ 2009-08-16T02:39:00

2009-08-16T06:41:07Z

I feel more at peace than I have felt for most of my (semi) adult life.

I DON'T KNOW WHY BUT I JUST FEEL REALLY OKAY

asparagusgreens @ 2009-08-10T23:54:00

2009-08-11T04:03:40Z

i am still in school. that's okay.

I CANCELLED MY LOANS BECAUSE I DON'T NEED THEM THAT FEELS REALLY COOL AT LEAST. so the world is giving me a favor, and another year to live in a false reality.

grad school or peace corps after this year / NO BABIES

asparagusgreens @ 2009-08-10T23:51:00

2009-08-11T03:53:39Z

just a limejournal postnet,

I like things without flies on them.
I like dogs.
I like decorations people make when the living isn't easy.

asparagusgreens @ 2009-08-07T15:14:00

2009-08-07T19:14:49Z

asparagusgreens @ 2009-08-04T17:03:00

2009-08-04T21:12:59Z

how families look
how families move
how to be happy
how to use what we have
how to use time
working hard
proving I have worked hard
to myself
to others
meaning what I say
using all of my resources
finding all of my resources
finding the right place to live
knowing it is the right place to live
having something need me

just knowing I did everything as close to right as I could do it.

I am tired a lot since coming home. being unproductive just makes me terribly depressed. it does that.
I WAS IN LOVE OK

asparagusgreens @ 2009-07-20T12:24:00

2009-07-20T16:24:53Z

hopefully they are totally hot

asparagusgreens @ 2009-07-20T12:07:00

2009-07-20T16:19:34Z

OH AND

yesterday I sat outside of pitchfork for awhile so I could see my lil bro.

AND WHILE I WAS SITTING THERE FRIGHTENED RABBIT STARTED PLAYING ON ONE OF THE MAIN STAGES. I didn't know. I didn't know they were playing pitchfork. I don't know anything about them except that they are scottish. But my brother left me to go see them because he loves them because he is so indie rock.

guys, I am driving through canada with them next week. girl hipsters everywhere love them.

I'M SO METAL

asparagusgreens @ 2009-07-19T23:28:00

2009-07-20T03:51:38Z

Last night the boys played at BITCHPORK. It was the noise festival to hangout with pitchfork.

It was packed. It was amazing. They played at exactly the right time and the crowd destroyed me. JOE LOUIS WAS THERE

At 4 in the morning we went to a nice lawn. Most of the boys slept in the van and some of us pouted until we were given a roof over our heads.

I CRIED WHEN I WOKE UP IN THE MORNING I CRIED WHEN THEY LEFT FOR KANSAS CITY.

asparagusgreens @ 2009-07-16T01:00:00

2009-07-16T08:21:00Z

after traversing the country in a box full of 10 boys, having to meet new people every night (EVERY NIGHT), having to socialize every night (WITH NEW PEOPLE EVERY TIME), having to deal with boy-talk, rarely bathing, learning how to sleep on cement floors, being okay with being completely uncomfortable pretty much constantly
making a million contacts (and job prospects already in brooklyn if I wanted to move there a little)
swimming in both the atlantic and the pacific ocean in less than a week
learning how to change the idling speed on the van so it could start
paying a latino man 15 dollars on the street to fix a water pump
trying to chase 13 kids on mushrooms out of the desert before a flash flood

SIX WEEKS ON THE ROAD. that is more than six days.

I am actually going for eight weeks now.

and after dealing with everyone in this one night at home, I already know this has helped me so much. this is hella bootcamp. yeah I CAN TALK TO YOU ABOUT ANYTHING NOW BECAUSE I KNOW YOU MORE THAN NOT

so, anyway, I totally recommend doing something completely insane and uncomfortable for an extended period of time. you have to be completely out of your element to be able to understand yourself and what you don't care for.

I am okay. I just hope my bubba will be too.

asparagusgreens @ 2009-07-01T06:56:00

2009-07-01T14:21:46Z

I am not sleeping. my schedule is revolving completely around the lives of others. I eat lots of bad things or nothing. I have to tolerate a lot of bullshit. a lot of boy-talk.

I'm not dead yet, though. and everyday is something completely different. to get a shower this morning, I stumbled over 6 sleeping boys in the dark and had to move a pair of legs out of the bathroom so I could close the door.

We are out of the desert now. Which is so nice. The south is so much more tolerable than the southwest.

It is pretty hard for us to get anywhere and I am the only motivator---but motivating and setting alarms and clocking distances for someone else's art. I want them to wake themselves up one time. to be on time. for their show. so that is kind of depressing.

but really I get free drink tickets at most venues, a floor to sleep on, a van to drive, and free food most of the time.

and the other band. I get them to. and everything with them is a super epic extreme adventure and then a short nap but then more.

asparagusgreens @ 2009-07-01T00:14:00

2009-07-01T07:18:53Z

in case you were wondering what it is like to go on tour with 10 boys

asparagusgreens @ 2009-06-19T09:50:00

2009-06-19T16:57:46Z

there is nothing better than accidentally running into friends from home on the other side of the country. MY PHONE IS DEAD. I WAS SLEEPING IN THE VAN NEXT TO A BAR AND HEARD STEVE'S VOICE AS I WAS WAKING UP. WALKING BY.

SERIOUSLY.

also NOTHING BETTER THAN A DUDE FROM A REALLY SWEET BAND BUYING US INDIAN PIZZA AND THEN GIVING US ALL BEDS TO SLEEP IN.

san francisco is aight. I hear breakfast is better here as well.

asparagusgreens @ 2009-06-17T15:58:00

2009-06-17T20:08:18Z

Our van broke down. I assumed that any mechanic we went to would try and take advantage of us. But we accidentally found a shack full of bikers in a band. They will have it fixed in an hour, for half the price that a michigan mechanic said it would cost.

Everyone is the nicest person I have ever met. Except for chris from the religious girls who pretended our gps was a poptart and we lost it for like twenty minutes.

This whole thing is so good. I can learn how to trust a little and love a little. I have the flu. I don't even care.

today we have a nine hour drive down to sacramento! then lots of california for awhile.

asparagusgreens @ 2009-06-12T02:08:00

2009-06-12T06:59:57Z

I've been on tour for a week now.

I have so much room for other people as I am so out of my element that I can't fall into my routines.
This is so amazing. This is so good for me! today I made a printmaking friend, she gave me an etching and I will mail her one of mine.

I am meeting amazing people every single night. (and day for the radio shows) AND I get to see a show with different bands I have never even seen EVERY DAY.

AND I AM IN THE MOUNTAINS RIGHT NOW. TODAY I CLIMBED A MOUNTAIN. LAST NIGHT AT 5 in THE MORNING I MADE AN EGGPLANT PIZZA. THE RADIO STATION IN BOULDER GAVE ME A T-SHIRT. I SOLD 75 DOLLARS WORTH OF MERCH LAST NIGHT. I DON'T WANT TO BE IN ONE PLACE EVER AGAIN.

asparagusgreens @ 2009-06-03T23:22:00

2009-06-04T03:48:57Z

I guess
tomorrow I am going to chicago
on saturday I am going to Iowa city
on sunday I am going to minneapolis
on monday I am going to omaha
on tuesday: kansas city
and denver the next and boulder the next
and salt lake city
and something in idaho
then seattle and portland for two days
sacramento
then the bay area for a little
LA for like 3 days
then tucson
then albuquerque
then santa fe
then maybe 4 different places in texas
then two days in new orleans
then jacksonville, fl
atlanta
greenville, north carolina (where my momma wants to move someday) for the 4th of July
Richmond
Washington DC
Baltimore
Philly (hi uncle larry)
something in Connecticut
two days in Brooklyn
Providence
Boston
buffalo
pittsburgh
with some band

instead of santa cruz. OH WHOOPSIE POOPSIE THESE THINGS COME UP SOMETIMES.

my butt will hurt so bad from carrides car-butt. but i got a jump-rope to jump around at pit-stops to make sure I don't get a blood clot like david bloom did in iraq.

asparagusgreens @ 2009-06-02T04:49:00

2009-06-02T09:02:20Z

silly emma!

I mistook total fear for excitement and now I just want to be able to sleep for the rest of the night.

I said I'd do something that doesn't really help anything when I was planning to go somewhere and help lots of things. I can do whatever I want! I CAN DO WHATEVER I WANT AND IT DOESN'T MATTER AND THAT IS SO GREAT. But it is making my automatic wake-up time at 4:30 in the morn. 9:30 is way better.

I am the worst at making decisions. I think I am giving myself an ulcer. FOR REASONS THAT DON'T EVEN MATTER.

outsider art is the only cool kind

2009-05-31T03:04:56Z

AUGUSTIN LESAGE IS THE MAN.

making things because you have to in order to communicate with your spirits.

ART IS ONLY GOOD IF IT IS JUST WHAT YOU HAVE TO DO

asparagusgreens @ 2009-05-30T19:34:00

2009-05-30T23:36:16Z

I don't trust anyone!

asparagusgreens @ 2009-05-27T17:11:00

2009-05-28T00:42:50Z

right yeah. I am thinking about my thesis when most of my friends are trying to figure out what they are going to do with their REAL LIVES. I know I know I know academia is a fat cushion. but dammit, I love this cushion.

anyway. why do I get these ridges in my toenails?

THIS WOMAN:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Andrea_Zittel

I want this art thing to encompass every choice made. in how I live, you know? you make the things you do and decisions you have to make because of every choice you are making in the first place. what you eat and where you sleep and what you wear.

the laymen usually isn't impressed by minimalism or even abstract expressionism. It doesn't make the process interesting, it doesn't make the viewer curious about the state of the artist, it just goes over their head. And what is the point of making art that is accepted only by those who "get it?" Why can't you make something that is original that tells a story about process that can at least be appreciated for the effort? ART THAT MAKES YOU FEEL GOOD. Art that is about what everyone can agree with and an explanation for the artist's existence. So---triggering a mystical state or religious experience.

If the mystical state relates to serotonin regulation then creating a religious experience can at least make the viewer ALWAYS relate to the art in some way. If the mystical state is triggered by "TRIPPY SHIT," then impressive art needs to force all of the mental "faucets" open at once. It doesn't even have to be personal. It just has to be about everything.

and to make art about everything, everything you do has to be about art. A SENSE OF ONENESS WITH YOUR PROCESS.

I'm drunk

this is a good place to live

2009-05-26T05:42:29Z

asparagusgreens @ 2009-05-19T17:25:00

2009-05-19T21:26:38Z

I ran this morning. longer than I meant to cuzza I didn't want to stop.

asparagusgreens @ 2009-05-17T23:42:00

2009-05-18T03:56:28Z

I know better what I will be doing over the next two and a half months:

Either working on a revegetation project in yosemite- the planting trees, cutting down lodgepole pine trees (handsaws ONLY), trimming blackberry bushes (scared of this cuz bears love berries ok), and trail maintenance.

OR work towards the elimination of certain invasive species in sequoia national park.

These two things will alternate by work-week depending on what the trees all need.

Also I think I will like santa cruz a lot. as long as no one pressures me to surf.